A Wish From the Heart

One day, I just couldn’t take it anymore. Life was becoming too hard to bear. I felt I couldn’t take it anymore, so I prayed a prayer I’ve never said before. It went like this…

“God, things are just too hard for me right now. I know you are there and you know I am here. Please give me a sign. Give me a sign to let me know that you love me and you will take care of me.”

Then the day went on. I forgot I prayed this prayer.

I ended up having an awesome day. I haven’t had a day like that before. My husband took me out on a date, bought us some bikes, and ended the day with ice cream.

We want back home and he took a nap. A knock on the door.

It was my neighbor with a handful of daffodils in her hand. She said she’s been meaning to say hi, but haven’t had the chance out of being busy as well as honestly sharing being afraid to reach out. But today, she said that she just had to knock on my door. She had been cooking and was in the middle of things, but she said she just felt she had to drop everything and knock on my door.

She gave me the daffodils. I shared how I was having a hard time.

Then she prayed for me.

A strong wind came out of nowhere as she put her hand on my shoulder to pray for me.

I was amazed.

She gave me a very long healing hug and at that moment, I remembered my prayer earlier that day.

A prayer answered. =)

My eyes became open to everything around me, and I wrote the song below because I was completely inspired by the situation.

A Love Beyond Compare

Sometimes we need a little help from

Those that are round us to lift us up

From the ground, to the sky, then to the sun above

 

I know that our lives may seem like it’s so full

I know that it seems we have so little time

To give thanks, to laugh, to take a break sometimes

 

Look at the trees they just stand right there

Sway with the wind without a little care

So tall, so strong, so faithful to the world

 

Look all around you there’s a glimpse of

Something beyond the things you think of

From a smile, a hug, a love beyond compare

Monday Storytelling: I took a road trip

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I believe there is a constant war going on in our soul. It’s the war between shrinking back or rising up to the challenges that come our way. One day I took a much need road trip because this war was just becoming a little too much for me. I needed to get away and figure things out.

You see, I’m normally someone who doesn’t have the best habits or discipline; however, lately, I’ve been doing really well. I have a couple of awesome jobs I really like. On top of that, I’m pursuing my dreams and using my gifts and talents. Things are going great. When things go great, I notice that I sometimes I want to change things up. I don’t get this.

I’m also someone who likes to control things and I wanted to figure out why I do this so I can eliminate this problem in my life. In essence, I wanted to figure out a formula to control life. Because truth is, life can be messy. If you don’t experience struggle or hardship in life, you’re probably living life in a bubble and not growing, challenging, and reaching your potential.

The thing is: “There is no solution to life. The only way to go through life is to live it. To go through the ups and downs and learn from it. @LnLRevolution.” To grow into knowing more and more of yourself, so you can learn to master your weaknesses and capitalize on your strengths.

I wrote this song, War, after my road trip. Once I realized I couldn’t figure out how to avoid the struggle, pain, and drama in life, I realized that’s just life…we experience struggle, pain, and drama. However, I’m not going to leave it there because that’s not the main point.

The main point is that we can decide to either shrink back or rise up to the challenge to whatever life throws our way. We are more powerful than we think and if we decide to use the powerful spirit and mind we all have, we can win this war in life by becoming stronger and wiser and becoming exactly the amazing and talented person we were meant to be.

Lyrics to the song:

Another day the sun is rising
Hit the road
Turn on my tune
On the radio

Wide open space feel like I’m free
Hit the gas
No place to go
Just drive to anywhere

Taking time
Need a break from myself
There’s a war inside
Ready to break out again

This war
Will last all of my life
Need a way to getaway
From the insanity

Woah…there’s a war inside my very soul
Woah…constant drama for the rest of my life

I’ve wondered what is wrong with me
Am I going crazy
Losing it
Or acting out

They told me it’s all in my mind
Go to bed
When you wake up
It will all be fine

But all hell broke loose for me
All my guts
Spilled on the floor
Could not contain myself

I said there she goes again
Here’s to the cycle
Of the circus
Playing in my mind

Monday Storytelling: Hope in times of hopelessness

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Today I wanted to share the story behind my song Things Will Change. I wrote it about a couple of months ago when I was just going through a rough patch. We all go through those, we all get through it, yet when we’re in that moment, it’s hard to think that things will change.

During that time, I believe I was just struggling getting through the everyday. I pride myself in being someone who is positive and let’s nothing get her down. I do allow myself moments to just let it all out when I need to, and then I try to get back to the swing of things. I let myself do that and then I needed to remember how to get back to things.

I realized that I just had to get up, go to work, and keep on going even if I didn’t feel like it. Feelings come and go, they don’t last, so they don’t have to have the last say. Another thing was I had to exercise my ability to have hope. I take things like having hope and faith for granted sometimes, and I realized I just needed to believe that things will change. So in the meantime, I wrote this song at that time to help me get through the moment, let my feelings out, and have hope at the same time. Hopefully this story can help anyone going through a rough patch.

Here are the lyrics:

If it means anything
I keep on going
Even if I don’t want to

If it means anything
I try to smile
Even when I don’t feel good

Cause I know
Things always turn around
When you least expect it to

Even when I doubt
Without a doubt
Things turn around eventually

If it means anything
I hold onto hope
When hopelessness sinks in

If it means anything
I find my hands together
Praying for a sign

Things will change
I’ll feel good

Northern Shores

I was searching for the man
Who would sweep me off my feet
Then a note fell from the sky with your name

Pardon me while I grow mad
Aren’t you the one from my old dreams
The one with the five foot sword black horse

Take me away
Don’t you delay
Let’s go
To the northern shores

Let’s find some wood and make a home
In front of this old mountain there
Beside the streams that rush on by
Surrounded by the forest

Don’t mind the little critters there
We’ll live without a care
You, me, and the bear

The birds chirp
The sky’s sing
This is our little heaven on earth

You’re here
With me
Where we belong

For a free download of the complete Make The Switch Framework, click here.

To listen to more music, check out my music website at jamiepennelly.bandcamp.com.

Songlist for the Soul

Meant To Fly: “She doubted what she sensed cause no one else believed. But still the truth inside her heart just would not leave.”

You Belong: “You are loved, you belong, you are treasure found. You’ll be whole, you’ll know who you are.”

I Need A Moment: “Life is a struggle sometimes I just wanna take a break. Another moment and I worry I might just break. I know I’m not the only one who feels this way.”

The Antidote To Being Human: “I want a spell to make the pain go away. The antidote to all the ails of being human.”

Things Will Change: “Even when I doubt, without a doubt things turn around eventually.”

Lost Now Found: “You’re a masterpiece of the maker of the universe. That shows you just how great you are.”

My Spaceship Zooms: “No longer strange…just me.”

Hey Pain: “Hey pain, how about you and me be friends.”

I Smile: “I smile and my worries go.”

To My Dad

He bought me my first guitar at a pawn shop
I wrote my first song it was about God
He told me I would become a rock star
He bought me my first guitar at a pawn shop

I told him I don’t want to live in his house
He gave me wings so that I can be free
I fell from the sky I lost my purity
He told me he knew that I would see

How’d you know dad
That I grew too big to live inside your house
To let me go when it was my time

How’d you know dad
That I would fall and see the truth my own way
But everything would be okay

You know that I was born to be like you
No matter what I say I am afraid of heights
No matter how hard I try I am quiet
No matter what they don’t see I have a big heart

I’ve grown to love my mom, you’ve always loved her
No matter how hard she pushed you were a rock
You saw the beauty in her since you were seventeen
You are the greatest dad I’ve ever seen

Thank you for everything
Thank you for loving me*

*These are the lyrics to my song “Dad.” If you’d like to listen click here.

The Story of the Little Duckling

There was a little duckling born without no wings
But everyone around her also had no wings
She had a sense that they were meant to be airborne
That they were meant to fly

She told the duckling world about the truth she found
They laughed at her and told her to stay on the ground
She doubted what she sensed cause no one else believed
But still the truth inside her heart just would not leave

I believe
I was born
To fly

I believe
I was made
For more

I believe
In what I cannot see
I believe with my heart

I believe
I was born
To fly

She set out to strengthen her little feeble arms
They look at her like she had gone too far to save
They pity all the work that she was going through
They wrote her off as a poor little foolish bird

She felt the pain of others looking on with doubt
The doubt in her heart never seized to go away
But this belief was just too good to miss out on
So she kept on flapping as they kept on laughing on

You know how the story ends
She proves them wrong
The little duckling does indeed go flying
And she spent her time teaching others to fly*

*This story is the lyrics to my song “Meant to Fly.” Click here if you’d like to listen to the song.

Made to Create

Momma called out to me
Baby please, please don’t go
But I had a life to live
Now it’s time to go

Packed my bags and left
Hit the road and never looked back
Times got stuck in the ditch
But I feel alive

When I was growing up
Crazy hit me and would not let me go
But now I’m all grown up
I hit the world and would not let it go

Learned of misery and pain
Joined with vices thought that was life
Then I learned of something more
I was made to create

Grasped the devil by it’s neck
Stared it straight, straight in the eye
I know that game that you play
But you know I will win

I feel alright
I feel just fine
I’m all grown now
I will win*

*This is the lyrics to the song “Crazy.” Click here if you’d like to listen to it.

Life is a Struggle

Life is a struggle sometimes I just wanna take a break
Another moment and I worry I might just break
I know I’m not the only one who feels this way
Sometimes I wonder if I’ll ever find my way

And I said wait
Give me a break
I need a moment to just figure things out

Give me some space
Some time to think
I need just everything to slow on down

We’re either moving forward or just slipping back
We always know the place that we put ourselves in
If only we can say that we do not know
Won’t feel the weight of life hanging on our minds

Year by year pass on by
Memories of my own life
I get through every struggle
Makes me stronger now*

*These are lyrics to the song “I Need A Moment.” Click here if you’d like to listen to it.

You Belong

Today I feel like I’ve been found
A miracle it is to be
Of all the times I’ve felt so lost
Today I feel I’ve found my home

I am loved
I belong
I am treasure found

I am whole
I know who I am

My life begins, I journey on
To share the joy I have in me
My mission is to free your hearts
How magical your life can be

You are loved
You belong
You are treasure found

You’ll be whole
You’ll know who you are

You have strength inside
No more need to hide
Share your beauty with the world

Share your one true voice
You have something to say

You are loved
You belong
You are treasure found

You are whole
You know who you are*

*These are lyrics to a song. Click here if you’d like to listen to the song.